It's my party ...and I'll blog if I want to
Today is my birthday ...and I woke up just wanting to write.
As I've grown up, birthdays have this way of causing reflection. On one hand there's this side of joy, love and gratitude that we feel when we think about all of the happy times, things that were accomplished and those who shared those memories.
But then there can also be this sense of sadness, fear and pressure looking back at what was lost, looking ahead towards the things that haven’t been done yet ...now realizing that there's one less year to check everything off that list.
For those of you who have followed my journey, this past year has been an incredible one full of gratitude, lessons and so much growth.
I spent my birthday last year really sick. I was so focused on where I was trying to get that I wasn't taking care of myself ....I lost connection with a lot of people ...and I definitely wasn’t doing the things that I wanted to do.
Needless to say ...I had a lot of alone time. The way that I was living had caused me to be where I was in that moment and I wasn’t living my truth.
But I spent that time in reflection of myself, my choices, my career, the life that I had created, the people surrounding me ...it can get pretty deep when you spend months basically isolated to your 2-bedroom apartment!
And that's when I realized that it was time to make some changes or I was going to continue being sad, sick and lonely. So I made a vow to myself that I would listen to my intuition and follow when it was steering me in a different direction.
This year, I want my birthday to be a time of reflection again. I know that I’ve come so far, but sometimes old habits die hard. Right!?
I still fall back into trying to be everything for everyone and forgetting about those important people who are supporting me for exactly who I am.
So I want to take a moment to recognize those who have stood beside me and supported me through all of the changes, growth, failures and the ultimate journey towards truly figuring out who I am.
Side note: I'm also writing gratitude letters so I might be sharing some of those :)
Starting today ...I’m going to live out my purpose.
I started out this year with a blog and a passion ...but somewhere along the journey, I lost my direction. I feel inspired by writing ...my thoughts, my dreams, my advice, my experiences. I just love writing and that’s what I want to do.
So guess what!?
That's what I'm going to do. The blog is back up ...and I'm feeling inspired as EVER!